A Clean Beginning To A New Day
By Dakota Wind
Missouri River, N.D. - When I went out to start my car this morning, I saw that the
sun had not yet arisen. The far horizon was bright orange and pink, the north
and south horizon was purple and blue. Most of the sun light was reflected off
the clouds in the east from an even more distant sunrise. Because the rising sun
was teasing in its great reveal, it seemed like time was frozen in perpetual twilight.
The morning made me think of late fall mornings back on the
rez in the days of my youth.
The frost was frozen fast to the windshield of my car. It
came off in a couple of passes with the scraper. The frost curled in about it
itself like wood shavings. The curls gathered about the top of the window where
my scraping stroke ended, there they gradually melted as the windshield warmed
the interior.
I scraped in silence. Neighbors had already departed for
work. Neighbors’ children had already left for school. My breathing the only
sound accompanying the scraping came in puffs. When I was little I used to
imagine there was a little fire within me that burned warm. I remember hearing
once that long ago, the Lakota thought that the visible breath was also visible
spirit. I was never scared that I would lose mine, the fire within somehow kept
it close.
I stepped on my freshly shorn lawn cut only a few days ago,
and the grass crunched beneath my shoe. The crunch of delicately frozen grass
was too great a call to the little boy within me that I stepped some more just
for the joy of it and left a trail of crushed steps across the lawn before
getting back to my car.
The trees still have some leaves. Indigenous trees like the
ancient cottonwood go from shiny green to yellow and then fall. In the summer
when the wind blows through the cottonwood the leaves heave in a great constant
shush, it’s like the sound of the ocean. The leaves may change color, but after
they fall, they continue shushing until snow quiets them, and then the wind
changes.
The wind is a constant presence. One can count the number of
days without a breeze on one hand. In the summer, you might think that the wind
would be a welcome presence on a hot day, but it blows the heat around like a
furnace. In the fall, if anything can possibly carry the smell of cold and
winter, it’s the wind. It smells cold and distant, but clean too. Any moisture
that the wind carries a hint of always smells clean here on the prairie steppe.
Steam off the river filled the Missouri River valley as far
up river and down river as the eye could see. Silent undulating waves of fog cascaded
in slow motion in the early quiet. Tendrils of fog gently whipped at the
confines of the river bank and a few managed to lick the air above the tree
line. As a boy I remember being told the steam off the river like this is the
spirit of the river, “The river breathes too,” my grandfather said.
A magpie stirred and took flight in the neighbor’s lawn and
I’m reminded instantly that meadowlarks no longer wake me in the early
pre-dawn. The magpie alights in a nearby tree giving me a view of its snowy
white feathers on midnight black ones. The mix of black and white in a world of
dawn color is noble.
The moon sets in a sea of deep azure and grey misty clouds
in the western sky. Starlight is gradually snuffed out like a campfire, or a
candle. The brightest stars twinkle for a moment or two and then quit for the
day.
My car is ready and warm by the time I’m ready to get back
in.
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